My life as always been a roller coaster, not knowing when it is going to end. But one day, a most amazing thing happened, after months of searching and finally giving up, she found me. Not at a bar, or a dance club, but on the internet. I know cliche. Honeslty though, at first I didn't think that it would go this far, seeing how she had just broke up with her girlfriend about three weeks before messenging me. I thought I would be a rebound. Spending more time with her, I figured out that wasn't the case. Seven months have gone by since we first met, and I have never been happier. It was hard at first because we lived about two to three hours away from eachother, only seeing eachother on the weekends and without my friends mother, who is my friend as well, then I wouldn't have met her at all. The first meeting, I was driven to pick up her up from her apartment and bring her back to my friends place. I was staying there at the time. I was so nervous, I had such a powerful feeling of butterflies that they turned into bats, fluttering around in my stomach. No longer drowning in the smog of my past but making flight to the future. Hoping and wishing this one was different. My friends mom and her boyfriend noticed that I was nervous, I even let my friends mom feel my hands they soaked with sweat. She laughed and looked at her boyrfriend, and then said something funny. "I think this girl needs a little courage." And then she rolled a joint. We smoked that and I felt a bit better. The drive up took so long, I thought I would never get there. As well, I had told the girl I was meeting that I would be there in an hour not knowing how far it was. So when we have finally got there, I had to wait downstairs outside for her. I waited about twenty mintuies before coming back to the SUV, my friends mom said . "Go back there and wait." I winned and said it was cold, but went back anyways. Half way back to the apartment she came out, and I was stunned. She was tall, I knew this but her pictures did her no justice. She was gorgouse and still is today. Her hair was down, long and black. I hadn't noticed at the time but knew ahead of time she had tattoo's. Her attire was what I expected, but loved about her. Baggy tripp pants and a baggy sweater. Periced eyebrows twice, on both, three lips rings, and numerous ear rings. I couldn't stop looking at her and I think she was surprised that I was actually as short as I said I was. I said hello, she said it back. And then we walked to the SUV, we got in and I introduced her to my friends mom and her boyfriend. My friends mom was helping releave the tension with jokes and just being silly. I love her for that, but the back seats where never quiet. I have never talked to someone so much after first meeting someone new. But for some reason I could. Her and I did nothing but talk the whole way home. I wanted to much to hold her hand, and when we weren't talking we both looked out the window. I would look at her every now and then stealing glances of her, found out later she was doing the same thing and she wanted to grab my hand as well. But had the same feeling I did, way to nervous. Later when we got to the house, we really didn't do much at first just talking and watching tv. I sat at the end of the couch, while she sat at the other. I was to nervous to try anything, I don't do the first moves. It took about half way through the second movie before she looked and me and said something surprising. "You know, you can cuddle with me." Yes! I had forgot she had told me she was a cuddle freak, and I very much love that about her. Because I am too. So i slid over to her and she wrapped her arm around me. I think my face turned red but the lights were off so she didn't notice. We had the living room to ourselves because at the time, my friends mom and her boyfriend had the room in the basement, and my friends mom's daughter who is a close friend of mine was in her room all night on the computer. We had lost of privacy, but at the time I didn't think we would need it. I am not a prue, but I have never slept with someone that I have just met, well once but I was very much high and drunk and that was a couple years before this plus it was only a one night stand thing. And I wanted to date the girl I was cuddling with. When we had talked on the internet and the phone we would ask all sorts of questions, as well and flirt like mad. She had asked me what I was looking for in a relationship, I had said someone to settle down with. Because I am sick of people playing with me, and being people's experiments. She agreed and said that's what she was looking for too. I bigger glimmer of hope came about me. I hoped that she would like me, and not get sick or bored of me like everyone else. I am not that exciting, and sometimes very logical. So that tends to get annoying to some people. Although I have a huge sense of humor and that's what she love about me best, that I can laugh and pretty much anything funny. So anyways back the living room. We moved from the couch to the floor, I had laid down some blankets for us to sleep on and got some pillows. We were now watching a new movie but talking at the same time. I honestly don't remember who made the first move, I think she did. Actually she did, because I was to scared to. Don't know why but at first she very much intimaded me. Not anymore, because I know how much of a teddy bear she is, but piss her off and you better find a bomb shelter. We were laying there and she lended over and kissed me, not just a little kiss. The first kiss was powerful and deep. I never wanted it to end. That kiss led to others and then after a while of that, she moved her hands and so did I. But she had had her monthly gift so she wouldn't let me do anything to her. But really, I would have anyways. Fuck, I'm a girl I don't care about that stuff. Well that night, I figured out. I don't think I had ever truly mad love to someone. Because making love to her. Well let me tell you, she made me drunk, I was completely dismantled by her. Everything about her was outstanding. I have never met anyone like her, and I never want to.

It's been seven months as I have told you, and not much has changed in how I feel for her. It took me about two months to have her admit to me that she loved me, I had already told her. Because really I did. I fell hard for her and fast. She wanted to wait to tell me to make sure I wasn't going to leave her. She has had the same kinda of relationships as me, just someone dicking around with us. I love her more and more everyday, and I love having the talks with her, late at night for a couple hours before we go to sleep. I love to watch her draw, because she loves to do it so much. She has given me two presents that no one ever has before, and not just that she did it for me. She gave me two tattoo's. I never made her but I had asked her to draw me one up. And she did, it is amazing, a heart vile with a flame above it, with trible at the sides and a blank banner. It's only the outline so far, it hurt me to much. On my back, our old roommate had to hold me down. Later when she goes back to finish it the banner will say Stardust. Something between her and I. A couple days later she did one on my arm, it is a cute bat, wings seperate from the body and a heart underneith it. That one only needs to be touched up and coloured. I can't really see myself with anyone else other then her. I wake up every morning thanking who ever gave her to me. We like to say that she is the demon to my angel, because I am way more tame that she is, but I have my moments. I still get butterflies when we kiss, and my knees go weak when she breaths on my neck. We have both given each other rings, and maybe down the road. Maybe, we will be giving each other more serious rings. Not that the ones aren't but they are promise rings.

My heart skips a beat everytime I see her, and heard those words I love so much. Everything I hear, "I love you." Come from her lips I want to kiss her right there, because I know she means it. Her kisses practically knock me off my feet and her voice melts me. I love her with everything I have and more. It i could give her the world I would, to rip my heart out and put it in a box I would give it to her. I do everything and anything for her, even though she doesn't ask me to. I just want to. I love just making her happy, to see her smile. She had told me that she never really had before, and I make sure I make her at least once a day, if not more.

Her mouth is so tempting, her body devores me, and her eyes peirce my soul everytime. I have never loved anyone so much, and I know she loves me too. For see tells me everyday.

I have met my soul mate and her name is Jess.